^Dismantle Me^

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 22:25:02 GMT

go to http://www.livejournal.com/users/sweet_hiatus/

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 22:11:24 GMT

sometimes i get kinda jealous that josh almost lives over at kris' on the weekends. i know i shouldn't, but i do... i thought i was gonna see him yesterday and then mebbe today. i didn't/haven't... yesterday at my game all my friends were either cuddling on/talking about their bfs. i just drank my gatorade... and when asked what josh was doing i said "either drunk, getting drunk, or throwing up in a pool" sorry, i guess i'm in a bad mood. i'll probably delete this post later. i just wish shayni was here to cry on. i miss having a friend who's there for me all the time. i hate brandon. just someone please take me away from the pain in my house.

I'm going to go mow my effin lawn

* i want to scribble your name across my walls and mourn the loss of friends i didn't have*
*if i was to fall right now, would you catch me?*

sweet hiatus

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 20:43:56 GMT

i signed out early today, i am sick. amber got so mad she grabbed my shoulders, dug her fingers in, and shook me. right in fron of shayla, walden, and doyle!!!! it hurt so bad i was cringing... eh... i think she's crazy. she makes me hate journalism... but anyway, i'm in charge of the Luncheon thingy on friday and i will most likely be going to a journalist convention thingy soon so... eh... g2g work on all that. byeas!

Rant about people Online
Ok this one is gonna be a long one. First people who ALWAYS IM ya, you block them then you decided to see how they are and they where sitting there monitoring your online action by asking other people if your ONLINE. Or people who have been blocked and then sit there and ask you if there online. If you where blocked, that person doesn't want to talk to you anymore GET IT. 2nd Why do people try to act like there better then someone when there online. its soo stupid. I go to chat rooms that if you cant work the web its not that easy to find. But then these Online Bitches sit there and act like there better then everyone. And talk shit. its soo STUPID. Then they tell these people to 'get a life' hello if ur online as much as the person your telling to get a life or MORE then who is the kettle calling black. Its messed up. 3rd POSERS ahhhh people who pretend to be someone else. Or people who use fake pictures or anything like that. its sooo STUPID be yourself. If your ugly be proud of your ugliness or just dont show people your pictures. But DONT go and use a fake picture. And then the EVIL EVIL EVIL ASL? I HATEEEEEEEEEEEE THAT ahhhhhh its just sooo STUPID. Is it SOOOO hard to ask, So where are you from? How old are you? And Whats your name? that way u get the gender AND you will know there name AND it can start a conversation. SOOOO HARD HUH, Anyways when someone asks me ASL? you get 99/H/Moon because normally its those idiots who like to cyber or whatever who do that alot so I have a certain HATE for that.

100 Things About Me
01. favorite color: Blue
02. favorite drink: water/gatorade/cranberry gingerale
03. favorite computer accessory: digi cam
04. favorite cookie: M&M's sugar cookies
05. favorite author: Edgar Allen Poe, Shakespeare, me
06. favorite beatle: none
07. favorite chipmunk: Theodore
08. favorite ice cream: Vanilla, cosmopolitan
09. favorite lover: never had a lover. had a one time fling and lost my virginity but no lovers here. but i DO love Josh more than anything
10. do you believe in love at first sight: mebbe puppuy love. i don't know how long i puppy loved josh before we went out
11. do you wash your hands after you go to the bathroom: Yes people who dont are EWWW
12. do you put empty cartons back in the fridge: sometimes ><;;
13. do you do things you know you shouldn't: ya
14. do you take responsibility: Yes if im caught
15. do you associate with people you don't even like: not really they are a waste of my time
16. do you have any psychological disorders: ADHD mebbe? i dunno, just really perky a lot
17. do you drink diet soda: no, ewwww
18. have you broken the law: probably
19. have you had one too many to drink: ha, yes =d
20. have you stuffed cocoa puffs up your nose: no lol
21. have you graduated high school: nuuu, damnit...
22. have you bitten someone until they bled: no but my sis bit me
23. have you ever stolen a street sign: lol i almost did once with cody and vince
24. have you ever been in a food fight: yes!!!!
25. what are you not doing: right now? filling this thing out
26. what are you talking about: answering this thing
27. what are you wearing: jeans, star belt, Surf Like a Girl shirt, star earrings, checkered shoe string around my neck
28. what are you craving: oatmeal cookies
29. what are you lacking: oatmeal cookies
30. what are you going to do after this: look for cookies
31. what are you dependent on: internet, josh, shayni
32. what are you hoping: to finish this soon
33. what are you reading: lots of different mangas
34. what are you listening to: Coheed and Cambria-A Favor House Atlantic
35. last movie you saw: The Grudge
36. last person you touched: Josh <3
37. last person you yelled at: myself
38. last person you told you loved: Josh, i always tell him that
39. last thing you drank: sprite
40. last year, you were: stupid
41. last time you were on the phone: last night with my darling
42. last song you heard: Coheed and Cambria-The Velourium Camper III: Al The Killer
43. do you want to get married/divorced: married? Yes now that I found the love of my life
44. do you want to have children: I guess but im not looking forward to actually HAVING them
45. do you want to tell certain people off: not really
46. do you want to be somewhere else: yes a tropical island
47. do you want to be someone else: not really
48. do you want to be famous: no but i wouldnt mind being rich
49. do you want to go for a walk: tomarrow sure
50. do you want to hug anyone: yea, josh. or shayno
51. do you want to make a difference: yes, to whoever cares
52. how do you feel about president bush: don't care really
53. how do you feel about the internet: Its great
54. how do you feel about your family: *hiss*
55. how do you feel about your friends: I dont have many real friends, but those who are my my buds i love
56. do you like jelly beans: yea!!
57. do you like it when it rains: heck yes! i dance!!!
58. do you like to drive: its something you have to do to get around
59. do you like to eat out: Yep
60. do you like being home: Its ok
61. do you like the people (or animals) you live with: not really. bunch o' morons
62. do you like emo: YES!!!!!!!!!!!! unless it's that stupid junk about killing yourself. that is just crap.
63. do you like Microsoft: yea
64. do you like your name: Its boring and average
65. worst feeling in the world: feeling lonely
66. worst color combination: green and orange
67. worst color: brown
68. worst thing about people: people are stupid
69. worst element on the periodic table: I dont remember them
70. worst disease / infection to get: AIDS... oh hell, any STD
71. worst position to sleep in: on your back
72. I am not: skinny
73. I love: Josh
74. I hate: Bugs
75. I fear: Bugs
76. I hear: Coheed and Cambria- The Crowing
77. I crave: Josh, Oatmeal cookies
78. I cry: too much
79. I care: too much
80. I feel alone: alot
81. I drive: slow
82. I sing: bad
83. I dance: in the rain
84. I write: good when I want to but its not often that I care too
85. I play: DDR, softball
86. I miss: Josh, Shayni
87. I search: for oatmeal cookies
88. I learn: programming skills
89. I feel: sick of your face
90. I know: I know almost nothing
91. I need: Money to buy oatmeal cookies
92. I succeed: in being a loser
93. I dream: about horrible things that happened to me
94. I wonder: why did I let those things get to me
95. I want: complete happyness
96. I have: a hole the butt of my jeans
97. I give: my heart to you and pray to God you don't drop it
98. I fell: in love when he first kissed me
99. I fight: my mom
100. I say: "phwee"

WOW

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 23:19:33 GMT

holy effing BOB!!!!!!!!!! Jordan just drove up in his '65 blue Mustang with white racing stripes and he was like "i have sumtin to show you" it was SOOOO awesome!!!! he KNOWS i love old cars. i was flipping out and ran over to hug it. he showed me everythign in it and i was having a total ball. he even let me SIT in the driver's seat and START IT UP!!!!!! *dies* it was a beautimous moment everyone!!!!!!!!!!!! that car is the best. <3333333333333333333 jordan, buddy, you are greatness

lj's back...

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 00:47:29 GMT

Battle of the Bands last night was freaking AWESOME!!!!!! so i got home and cleaned my room. changed my shirt into the Desolate shirt. (lol it looks like a nightgown on me =p...) and mom looked up directions to the Orphium (club in Ybor) and we were off! was quite boring riding with mom. but we got there and i ran over and hugged shayla. met some of that band's family and was scared. they weren't letting us in yet but the entire sidewalk seemed to be covered by people in Desolate shirts. like craziness... so the guys came out. hugged josh. his dad met my mom. i met his sis, and his stepmom. (talk about scary!!! 0_____0;;;;) blah blah blah.... we went inside and just hung out for a little while. met more people, other people's girlfriends, and saw Justin. he was like messing with me about hitting him in the nuts last time i saw him. -_-;;; it was an accident!!!! and then sam called me mean. *hits them both* cris k. dyed his hair, did i say that??? he has the same hair color and almost style as Shayni!!!! i couldn't stop smiling whenever i looked at him. it was like a dirty, grungy, hairy, male version of Shayno. anywho, what was i saying? oh yes, then Desolate went up first so me, shay, and amanda ran up to the front. they were freaking greatness. and i found out josh and walden make funny faces while playing. i don't care, tho, watching made me smile nonstop. i LOVE you! i swear, when i saw him smile, i stopped breathing for about 2 seconds. Cris was freaking crazy out there. and i never really believed Kris could sing, but he did!! and i kinda enjoyed it. lol, i may sound weird but he has a nice screaming voice. it was over way too soon and i hugged Josh. I felt so happy, like... "that's MY boyfriend, and I LOVE him!!!!" he was all sweaty ^.^ hehehe. so yea, they went outside for a while. Shayla was official groupie for every band, lol. so i went up there with her and we watched a couple bands. Cuban Sandwich Crisis was soooooooooo kewl!!!!!!!! and this one guy from another band was break dancing in the middle of the floor so me, shayla, justin, kim, sam, etc. all set up a can-can line. some old man held Shayla's hand and danced with her. it was so funny ^______^ hehehe.. then i danced with shay a bit and got tired. went and talked to mom (she was drunk and getting along with Josh's family O_O;;) then went back and kept shay company b/c she was the only one on the floor. then josh came back. we stood and listened to some more bands. (Desolate was DEFINETLY the youngest there) then after i almost got smooshed by a couple mosh pits and josh pulled me back ( <33333333 ) we went and sat with his best friend and his girlfriend. talked. watched bands. eventually everyone else came back there with us. i talked to walden for a while. oddly, i've been doing that the past few days.... well anyway i was kinda bragging about my bestest friend in the whole wide world (shayno*blush blush*) and he was like "woah..." and i felt like doing that kuz Walden is a freaking crazy drummer in my opinion. shayno, methinks you need to meet this guy. he's not ugly. but not hot. hmm... i dunno. i guess he's cute. even tho he's dumb as a washing machine. i'm bringing pics to school of you for him to goggle at, and he's bringing pics of him for me to show you...er... so anyway then they had this total HOEBAG on stage. she might as well have been having sex up there with all her band members. and she kept shaking her butt, and since she looked anerexic she had no butt to shake. i'm going to dub her Twiggy, lol. so then they announced the winners. Desolate made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was like so awesome. like more than half the people there were supporting them. i was hugging josh for the longest time, i was soo happy for him! and then other people hugged him but hugged me as well. so i got hugged my Kris' grandma, and one of they're moms. then a buncha other people came to hug josh so i scootched away, being my shy self... but watching him so happy made me all warm inside. ^.^;; chu... so he went up there, i talked to shay a while, then we left. oh wait, did i tell you the guys from Cuban Sandwich Crisis signed a cd for us??? it was sooo kewl! and then the bassist kissed my mom's hand. awww... hehe. they were like "we like boobs" and i was like "mine are taken..*run away*" so yea... but now i have a buncha band buttons and stickers. hooray for stickers!!! lol... and a cd. shayla was making googly eyes at the singer. i was like "Awww" so yea... kissed Josh goodbye (didn't want to leave him) and went with mom. slept all the way home. took a shower kuz i smelled like smoke. slept some more. woke up today. and that's it. bye bye!

*when your fingers moved over the strings i felt the music's notes reveberate through my soul.
when you smiled at me, my heart stopped beating and my cheeks flushed crimson.
you're the most beautiful person i know, and i never want to let you go.
you're the owner of my heart.. and i just wanted to let you know.*
-short lil poem by Tiffo

hmm...

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:00:42 GMT

well josh wasn't in school today. i miss him so much... and i'm sorry for gettign mad at him... other than that, not much else is new. more people need to join journalism so they can be wit meh. well... g2g. later much!

*stole from matt again...*

1. hi. im Tiffo

2. Date Of Birth: 4/8/88

3. Eye Color: blue and grey

4. Hair Color: black and reddish brown

5. Hair Type: *being a smartass* i am type O+ }=D

6. Height: 5' 2"

7. Weight: uhh 118-122. sumtin, i dunno

8. Facial Features: facial features??? my nose? one dimple? the hell if i know!

9. Piercings: me ears

10. Tattoos: None yet. But I do wanna get one, any suggestions?

FAVORiTES:

11. Color: blue

12. Ice Cream Flavor: Neopolitan

13. TV Show: the grim adventures of billy and mandy, fairly oddparents

14. Movie: dodgeball

15. Book: Ray Bradbury- Dandelion Wine, Willa Cather- My Antonia

16. Computer Game: FF8

17. CD: Story of the Year, any AFI cd

18. Room Of The House: My room, comp room

19. Actor: Johnny Depp

20. Actress: don't like 'em

21. Day: Friday

22: Month: April, December

23: Season: Summer

24: Number: 3

25: Sports Team: Tampa Bay Lightning, Rangers, Titans

26. TV Channel: Fuse

27. Subject in School: Art, English, journalism

28. Place To Be: anywhere but here

29. Piece of Clothing: my underwear?

30. Smell: vanilla!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RELATiONSHiPS:

31. Do you have a bf/gf: yesh

32. What turns you on: playing with my neck or the inside of my wrist, how josh smells

33. What turns you off: smelling like cigarettes, wet kisses

34: What sexuality are you: straight

35. What do you first notice: their eyes. body type.

36. Have you ever been dumped: yeah...

37. Have you ever cheated on someone: unfortunately, yes

38: Has anyone ever cheated on you: too many times to count

39. Have you ever used someone: ...yes... *laughs at heavo*

40. Have you ever been used: lol... probably

41. Whats a perfect relationship to you: a relationship that has flaws

FRiENDS:

42. Who is your best friend: Shayno *sings* rhymes with draino!

43. Who is your worst friend: hmm... well she's not my friend anymore but i would've said heather s. now... er... amber?

44. Who makes you laugh most: Shayni, Josh, Shayla, Mandy

45. Who makes you cry most: err... whenever one of them is sad i cry??

46. Who is the funniest: Shayni, Mandy, Josh

47. Who is most serious: Candy

48. Who procrastinates: Amber

49. Who worries a lot: ME!!! lol, i dunno...

50. Would you pick your bf/gf over your best friend: wow.. I could never choose. shayni's a part of me and having to choose someone over josh would rip my heart in two.

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 16:29:35 GMT

i'm feeling better. i went to softball last night anyway. chrissy was my only team member there so far so i went and sat with the Looneys. i must've looked really sad b/c Tiffany F. and Lil Britt came and hugged me. i started crying again. our game started (we played my old team, the Titans) and everyone arrived so i went in the dug-out. Brittaney started cheering. Then Laura wanted to do the cheer Her Boyfriend's In The Stands. I walked out of the dug-out. the first few innings i was a mess. i kept missing great plays and throws. i even ran into the umpire behind me. when that inning was over Coach Bev yelled at me. Coach Gary came over, gripped my shoulder, and says "are you OK???!!!" so i kinda spent the rest of that dug-out period with my head in my hands. next thing i know, tho, my whole team is around me and pulling me up on my feet and hugging me and Brittaney goes "let's do some cheers, Tiff" so i went and screamed and danced with the rest of them. lol, screaming gets out a lot of stress, let me tell you!!!! we went back out and were winning by 1. i started playing like my old self again, and in front of all my old coaches, too! i was making awesome plays on second and working real well with Morgan and Josseline. During one catch Brittaney yelled "my SALSA!!!!" lmao, if you don't know what that means, you obviously aren't in on our private joke. even the Looneys came over to watch us play. We beat ass. Chrissy was on fire in left feild, Brittaney was all over the place in right center, and Morgan stretched like i've never seen stretching before (WITH a sprained ankle, mind you!). My batting was pretty good. i hit Britain in the arm tho. she showed me after the game. she has laces marks in her arm from me. O_O;; i feel so bad... I GOT MAC OUT!!!! holy bob, mac has got to be one of the best players in the history of softball and i got her out. i was standing at 2nd like this "O,O;;;;;;;;;;" lol... she's awesome tho... right now i'm heading to sign into school. i missed lunch. crap. Shayla, i'm sooooo sorry, i was just... DEAD this morning. i ended up talking to Josh on the phone for a long time. i was still kinda mad but i have another Tournament game tonight. hopefully he'll come to that one. if he does, we'll do the Her Bf's In The Stands cheer. well, i g2g. love you much!

40 is her number! *repeat* Tiffo is here na--a-me! *repeat* she's one of the reasons! *repeat* WE'RE GONNA WIN THIS GAME!!!!!!! *count down* hey, hey you! whatcha gonna do when the mighty mighty Bulls STOMP all over you!!! *repeat*

heartbroken

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 23:41:39 GMT

finally got ahold of josh and he's on his way to kris' house. wtf??? why didn't he tell me? was he just gonna let me play my game and wonder where he is??? i wanted him to be there. all my friends in the league are gonna be there to meet him and he's not gonna be there! i feel so sad... crying... fuck.... mascara's running. i would have been fine if he had told me. but the thing is he didn't. why? he told me he'd come. we waited for him and he never showed. so i called his cell. and he's going to kris'.... i still love him so much... but this game meant the world to me. i just wanted him to be there for me. i wanted him to see how great of a player i can be. oh god... i'm gonna go anyway and cry on Britt. i need her right now. the shays aren't here. bye....

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 22:19:17 GMT

Tournament tonight. Josh is coming. I'm scared pissless. Hope I do ok!!!! 'specially since i can't move my left arm w/o some extreme pain... fuck...

so Battle of the Bands is this weekend. Friday. woo!! tiffo is a very happy person. i need a ride. if mom takes me, she'll get lost or get me there too late. last year she got me there an hour late.... and Desolate is up first so i soooooo need to get there. Help? anyone? ugh... i wonder what else is goin on in the world. not much, looks like. vince apologized to me for screaming weeks ago. i don't think he was serious. he's not a serious type of person. but his attitude did seem genuine. hmmm... got a new seat in English today. i'm sitting next to this guy. he reminds me EXACTLY of doug. like... twins? i dunno his name, but i will find out!!! lol. it kinda creeped me out. i look over and for a second i thought i was siiting next to doug and was like " O_O;; errr...." lol... well i g2g now, later much!

Tiffo

Love you Josh

So sweet

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 01:50:58 GMT

my shoulder is KILLING me... fuck... anyway, went to softball Tournament today. For some weird reason Gary put me on short-stop. i've never played short before O_O;; odd... well Josh B. came over. we hung out for an hour and he played George for a little while. Then we went and picked up Jason. Jas gave me the new Green Day cd, YAAAAYYYY!!!!!! Jason my buddy, you are fucking awesome!!!!!! *loves the cd* umm.. so then we went to Tournament. Hung out some more. then the game started. i usually don't play that well except for batting. Today we lost, and only got 6 outs. I got FOUR of those outs!!!! *dances* i'm good!!!! lol, Josh and Jason bring good luck, they are coming to my games all the time!!!! well after we lost we ate fries and hung around. saw Mac and Britain from the Titans. Tiffany from the Looneys came over. She moo-ed at me, lol!!!! goofed off... kicked Josh... the usual. then we drove Jason and Josh home. Now here I am. Gonna take a shower. wee! well bai bai...

*Love You Josh soooooooooooo much!!!*

I'm a country girl

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 00:15:46 GMT

I GOT THE SECOND BOOK OF SHUTTERBOX!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!! *coughs* i mean, er... i'm home? Tuesday was really boring at first. cleaned house all morning and then called Josh. my poor baby was sick... so eventually mommy went and picked him up (i agreed to wash her damn car T_T;;) and when they walked in the door i wanted to tackle him, heh... so we exchanged x-mas gifts and his face was soooo funny when he saw the Checkers shirt. ^.^;; we watched Starsky and Hutch... then the rest of the family came home so i felt suffocated. was like "blah!" and we went on a walk. and of course, tiffo being the idiot she is went outside w/o shoes or a jacket. Heavo gave me her Vans and even tho i argued with him not to, Josh put his jacket on me. -______- *blushes crimson* so we walked around in circles around the construction site and talked n' stuff... Heavo and Josh ganged up on me and started tickling me. O_O it was killer, i tell you!!! first it started with heavo and then josh helped her so the next 30 min was me running around Buckhorn trying not to be tickled, phwee!!!!!!! they are SO not fair... so then we drove Josh home and i met his dad (eep!!!!!!) and was scared pissless.. kissed him goodnight and went home. went to bed. got woken up at 4 AM to pack. slept until 11 in the car on the way to Alabama. woke up feeling kinda... odd. we got to alabama and it was SOOOOOO fun!!!! me n Heavo went on a bike ride down the dirt road, played on hay bales, messed with some cows, and saw (oh boy) roadkill!!!! lol, it was fun tho. rode by the creek, got chased by a dog, saw horsies -^.^- then went back to the farmhouse and my dad gave us beer and sprite. hooray!!!! so after we were all thouroughly tipsy, dad brought out the guns. shot the crap outta some cardboard box and a "Mr. Smiley" with the old rifle. it was so much fun! and then me n heavo ran around like idiots in the cotton feild, heh. then dad said it was time to go kuz it was getting late. went back to Tallahassee and checked into our hotel around 6:30. i took a shower (was tired of smelling like beer) and we all got dressed up. my Uncle Rich and cousin Richy came out to eat with us. i can't STAND Richy. He's 16 but acts like a 12 year old neanderthal. he kept making farting noises and to every question i asked his answer had something to so with "breaking my hip" er...O.o;; my hip??? oo-k... all through dinner he kept making stupid faces at me and acting like a little kid. then after dinner me n heavo went to the work-out room b/c we had nuthin else to do and our parents were passed out in the hotel room. met some really nice guys. i got the feeling they were flirting we with me but i mentioned how much i loved Josh. and i talked about my piggy slippers a lot XD i think i was a lil drunk too... heavo says i do odd things like talk about Tampons when i'm drunk. *shrugs* oh well. then went in b/c i started feeling reaaaaaally sick. my head was hott and i felt like i couldn't breath. slept. woke up this morning and i felt really awfull. i think i got Josh's cold. so i coughed on Richy and told him i had "boyfriend germs" he freaked out and wouldn't get near me all morning ^_____^ hehehehe... well we went to Books a' Million. got me SHUTTERBOX!!!!! and the first 3 books of Model. loves it <333 then visited my grandma in the nursing home. i HATE that place!!! smells like death. and nasty stuff. makes me wanna hurl... anyway i started feeling worse around lunch and so when my fam went into Wendy's to eat i stayed in the car and slurped a little on a cold frostie. slept the rest of the way home. now i've got a slight fever and sniffles. yup, sick... ah well, at least they're Josh's germs ^_^;; well g2g gonna eat pizza and stuff. bai!!

moo

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 16:27:54 GMT

so... heavo's not feeling too great again. i let her sleep in my bed and she's still sleeping like the dead... poor sister... so now i'm kinda just... waking up. so not much to post. today i plan to clean. and 2morrow i'll see josh. and wednesday i'll be in alabama. i hafta see my redneck cousin Richy. bleh!!!! he's sooooo annoying. wordships me n Heavo like gods, i swear. *beats Richy off with a stick* so yea... i enjoy the bonfires tho. and watching the sun set behind the cotton feilds. it's so pretty out there *_* sooooo... hm... >.>...<.<... that's about it. i hafta go laundry now. later, loves!!

xoxo to Josh <3

guitar bunny

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 22:29:05 GMT

got pics of me playing my new guitar!!!!! enjoy...

i started playing this song me n my sister made up. about boobs.

this one's my fav.
b/c it's the end of the song, lol.

ta-da!!! done!!!!

comment please

Mistletoe Anyone?

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 17:36:34 GMT

YAY! Christmas!!!!! So happy... Got my beautiful new guitar. Epiphone, gibson style. red with a pretty starburst in the middle. wooooo! lol, and heavo got her bass. No idea what it is, i wasn't paying attention =d hehe... errrr... not much else to say. Played George (that's what i named my guitar) for Grandma on the phone. er... i hope to see Josh today. very badly. i miss him so much i could cry. um... mom's being a wench and vacummig behind my ear O_o;; ttfn, love you

X-Mas Eve

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 02:28:57 GMT

so i'm home again. and had the BEST time in clearwater. as far as i'm concerned, that WAS my christmas. and it was the best christmas ever b/c i was with shayni and i loves her dearly. i'm home now and all my family does is bicker and argue. i feel very sad... i miss josh terribly. all the screaming around here makes my heart ache. i wonder if josh misses me too... i hope i get to see him 2morrow. get my first kiss under the mistletoe, mebbe? lol, only if he wants to tho. well, erm, Merry Christmas!!!!!

*Even tho i haven't seen you in forever I love you*

Screaming w/o a reason?

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:58:39 GMT

well... i'm at Shayni's. Got here yesterday and did nothing but watch movies and be idiots, as usual ^_^ Have you ever seen Son in Law? i love that movie. so then we stayed up late last nitgh just... talking. we've been watching music vids all morning and we're supposed to be going to Celebratoin Station at 3. but ms. jen left a buttload of chores for shayno to do and we have done NOTHING!!!! we haven't even showered. I'm still in the Led Zep. shirt that i will probably give to Josh. egad, it's almost 2. i better get going, i wanna ride thos go karts todat! =d i will update next time i feel like it. later much!
hugs n stitches,
Tiffho

Love you Josh

P.S. stop breathing my air

i missed you

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 21:51:48 GMT

wow! so i woke up this morning kuz my phone was ringing and i missed the call but it was heather p.!!!!!! so i called her back and we hung out today. god, i missed that woman. she even yelled at me for not painting that wall since she was last here -^ ^- hehehe... then we went to the mall and ate orange chicken and an egg roll and slushies. Mmmm... so very good. we saw that dude Ryan there... Made Heather sad so i got mad at him. Grrrr!!!!! so not kewl... i wanted to stop at Barnes n Nobles b/c the 2nd book of Shutterbox is out but i ran out of money, nuuuuuu! i LOVE Shutterbox!!! oh well, hope i get it for Christmas. mom bought me my new guitar!!! she changed it tho... so sad... She got and Epiphone or sumtin like that. lol, i peaked. it's all pretty and in red starbursts, woo!!!! *dances* now i shall practice every day. er... not much else to say. i hope to see Josh and Heather P. for a few hours 2morrow. then i'm gonna leave around 2-3 for Shayni's. kuz mom hasta be home by 5 and heavo has softball practice... poop...i won't be home till Friday afternoon so if you want me, you'll hafta call my house and leave a message. heather said shay might have a party on friday. i wanna go and be with them, that'd be great!! well, i'm pretty sleepy so i'm gonna go. laters...

Love you, Josh <3333

So Deep...

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 00:42:36 GMT

woah.. went shopping for BRAS today. lmao... ended up getting more underwear than bras. oh well, i'm just suprised my mom bought me some pretty scandalous stuff. she even bought my sis *cough* underwire. lol, well enough about that. i've been cleaning my ass off the past 3 hours so i can go to Shayni's Wednesday. woo! i'm just sad that i won't be able to see Josh on Thursday and that's when we'll have been going out for one month... Phwee... I wonder if he can come over 2morrow... hm... well cheering myself up by listening to Kagerou - Rakushu - 02 - XII dizzy!!!! i LOVE this song. woo, so much screaming. J-rock is awesome...well g2g, mwah! I love you Josh

I'm Melting

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 17:18:34 GMT

so.. not much happened yesterday. went to girl scouts. i actually had FUN with kelly and Sharon. hmm... i dunno, we did our secret santa thing and lo and behold, kelly got me the Story of the Year cd. i was like "WOO!" she also bought me two boxes of Good n Plenty... heh, even tho we haven't really talked much since 9th grade it seem Kelly still knows me pretty well. weeeeeird... then we sat around the back room and played with some lady's baby. i didn't wanna hold it, it kept staring at me. weirdo little kid >.>;; phwee! then we decorated gingerbread cookies and i HATE gingerbread. bleh! oh well, the icing thinmg splooged all over my pants anyway =d hahaha... one minute i'm squeezing icing onto my cookie, next thing i know i'm covered in icing from my face to my knees. yea yea, laugh at me. everyone else did -^ ^- hehe! well got home and the parents were fighting. blah. went to my room and read my book and turned up my music so i couldn't hear all the yelling. ho-hum.. today i have to...clean? lol... i have no idea. actually since Heavo's at softball i think i'm gonna play FF8. if anyone needs me, my phone is available. Later Much!

Love you Josh <3333

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes

phwee!

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 18:53:14 GMT

~this christmas i gave you my heart~

well today was... interesting. josh brought me candy and a lil santa bear today. and a card. i read it and i almost started crying, lol. it was soooo sweet. ty, josh, i love you! i felt bad kuz all i brought him was a cherry strudel from Panera Bread O~O;;.... so i passed my exams, yay!!!! so great... and this break, i HAFTA hang out with Heather P, Mandy, Shayni, and Josh. This is gonna be the best Christmas ever. I haven't felt this cozy and warm inside since i was a little girl. Yay for Christmas!!!! lol... well i've gotta clean b/c ms. karen is coming over. Love you Josh.

I am Loved

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 18:38:38 GMT

Exams today. was pretty boring. gave out x-mas presents... was pretty boring until i got home and read Josh's xanga. i'm speechless. it's hard to breath. my face looks like a tomatoe. i look at myself and the mirror and wonder "who's that girl with the awesome bf who LOVES her?" i don't deserve him, but for some strange reason he loves me. and i LOVE him back too! woah... did i just say that??? yes, i did!!! i love love love him! to think it's only been 3 weeks. it feels like 3 years. Josh, i dunno how to tell you what i'm feeling except... I love you. for everything you do and who you are. And i will always feel this way.
i guess the only way to explain what i'm feeling to the rest of you is to let you read his post. here ya go..

"Hello all! Christmas break is almost here I can't wait. bleh. Jamie. bleh. Jamie is my FRIEND that I knew from 8th grade but she likes me. I love Tiffany. I had a long talk with her today because she started hitting on me again. I told her that I love Tiffo and I would never hurt her. Jamie looked really sad but there was nothing else I could do. Tiffany when you read this I really want you to know something. I really don't care how many ppl are reading this either. Tiff I'm falling for you sooooo fast. I've fallin in love three other times and had my heart broken. All those times took a really long time for me to actually be able to say I was "in Love." It's been a little more than three weeks and I can't and won't stop thinking about you. You will never have to worry about me cheating on you. ever. I won't do it. I just want you to know that. well I wanted to tell you that on the phone but I got nervous and stopped. well I'm gunna go to sleep now. I had to get that off my chest though.

p.s. Tiffany I love you

Josh"

Huggles and snuggles! oh my!

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 21:17:28 GMT

"..Look there she goes
The girl is strange but special
A most peculiar mad'moiselle!
It's a pity and a sin
She doesn't quite fit in
'Cause she really is a funny girl
A beauty but a funny girl
She really is a funny girl
That Belle! "

hmm... that's how i felt today. a little odd... but whatever. no conflict with Vince or Chad today, thank Bob! Had my "buffet" with Mandy, MayMay, and Casey! It was bitchin... lol... Jordan gave me a candy cane on the bus, he's such a lil sweetie. makes me laugh every time he starts talking "scottish" hehe... he gave me the most awesome quote. "life is like a box of chocolates.. eat every damn one of them!" hahaha, so funny coming from such a small lil dude... well, you'll all be happy to know my cold sore is fading. wee! i think it'll be gone by friday. can't wait... *bounces* sooooo i'm going shopping tonight. gonna get gifts for peeps and Josh. stay back josh, i don't want you to see what i'm getting you!!! *hides* lol... =d i'm such a dork... i told amanda today and she was like "awwwwwwwww" lol so yuh, better get studying, i have latin exam 2morrow. Love you Josh.

Littlebread-and-butterflies kiss the tulips
And the sun is like a toy balloon
There are get up in the morning glories
In the golden afternoon

There are dizzy daffodils on the hillside
Strings of violets are all in tune
Tiger lilies love the dandy lions
In the golden afternoon

There are dog and caterpillars and a copper centipede
Where the lazy daisies love the very peaceful life
They lead...

You can learn a lot of things from the flowers
For especially in the month of June
There's a wealth of happiness and romance
All in the golden afternoon

You can learn a lot of things from the flowers
For especially in the month of June
There's a wealth of happiness and romance
All in the golden afternoon

hey hoe!

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 01:00:05 GMT

read shayni's xanga and i'm thinking about making a christmas layout... but i love this one so much!!!! hm... ok FF8 is gone, time to get into my holiday spirit! *bootie wigglez* lol, i'm such a dork... well today i got to school and vince was like all screaming at me and shit and i was like "woah wtf did i do?" and he's like "chad told me you said i'm afraid of your bf" and i was like "WHAT?!" and we were arguing for like 7 minutes and he called me a fucking whore and a lying bitch and i guess i looked about to cry b/c he goes "oooh bet THAT hurt" and he said sumtin about Josh being a gay fuck or sumtin like that and that really hurt me... i walked to the edge of the group and just sat there... i really wanted to cry but Josh came over and i didn't want him to see me upset so i put on my brave tiffo face ^.^;; went to first and hung out with Carrie on the floor. took my Latin Oral Exam. bleh! the rest of the day was ok... at lunch me n Steph went and found Chad. i talked to him and he sat there and stared at me.. said nothing. i was like "are you gonna answer me?" and he just stuck more food into his chipmunk cheeks. this went on for a while, me trying to talk and him eating chips. so i grabbed his bag and smooshed the damn things and was like "i would hit you in the balls right now... but i doubt they've even dropped yet" so i left and went back to eat lunch with amanda, shayla, and kris. phwee..... the rest of my day i was FREEZING!!!!! dear lord, it's cold out. i think my nose is gonna turn blue and fall off! so i'm doing good, baking more stuff.... lol. always baking. maymay and mandy are a lil suprised by how much i bake.. oh well, it calms my nerves. woo, g2g, gonna make a new layout and play FF8. later much!
p.s. Josh i love you no matter what ANYONE says about you. (including vince) mwah!

[Belle:]
Little town
It's a quiet village
Ev'ry day
Like the one before
Little town
Full of little people
Waking up to say:

[Townsfolk:]
Bonjour!
Bonjour!
Bonjour! Bonjour! Bonjour!

[Belle:]
There goes the baker with his tray, like always
The same old bread and rolls to sell
Ev'ry morning just the same
Since the morning that we came
To this poor provincial town

[Baker:] Good Morning, Belle!

[Belle:] 'Morning, Monsieur.

[Baker:] Where are you off to?

[Belle:]
The bookshop. I just finished the most wonderful story
About a beanstalk and an ogre and a -

[Baker:]
That's nice. Marie! The baguettes! Hurry up!

[Women:]
Look there she goes that girl is strange, no question
Dazed and distracted, can't you tell?

[Woman:] Never part of any crowd

[Barber:]
'Cause her head's up on some cloud

[Townsfolk:]
No denying she's a funny girl that Belle

[Man I:] Bonjour!

[Woman I:] Good day!

[Man I:] How is your fam'ly?

[Woman II:] Bonjour!

[Man II:] Good day!

[Woman II:] How is your wife?

[Woman III:] I need six eggs!

[Man III:] That's too expensive!

[Belle:]
There must be more than this provincial life!

[Bookseller:] Ah, Belle.

[Belle:]
Good Morning. I've come to return the book I borrowed.

[Bookseller:] Finished already?

[Belle:]
Oh, I couldn't put it down. Have you got anything new?

[Bookseller:] Not since yesterday.

[Belle:]
That's all right. I'll borrow . . . . . this one!

[Bookseller:]
That one? But you've read it twice!

[Belle:]
Well, it's my favorite! Far off places, daring
swordfights, magic spells, a prince in disguise -

[Bookseller:]
If you like it all that much, it's yours!

[Belle:] But sir!

[Bookseller:] I insist.

[Belle:]
Well, thank you. Thank you very much!

[Men:]
Look there she goes that girl is so peculiar
I wonder if she's feeling well

[Women:]
With a dreamy, far-off look

[Men:]
And her nose stuck in a book

[Townsfolk:]
What a puzzle to the rest of us is Belle

[Belle:]
Oh, isn't this amazing?
It's my fav'rite part because --- you'll see.
Here's where she meets Prince Charming
But she won't discover that it's him 'til chapter three!

[Woman:]
Now it's no wonder that her name means "Beauty"
Her looks have got no parallel

[Shopkeeper:]
But behind that fair facade
I'm afraid she's rather odd
Very diff'rent from the rest of us

[Townsfolk:]
She's nothing like the rest of us
Yes, diff'rent from the rest of us is Belle!

[LeFou:]
Wow! You didn't miss a shot, Gaston!
You're the greatest hunter in the whole world!

[Gaston:] I know.

[LeFou:]
No beast alive stands a chance against you. ---
And no girl, for that matter.

[Gaston:]
It's true, LeFou. And I've got my sights set on that one.

[LeFou:] The inventor's daughter?

[Gaston:]
She's the one - the lucky girl I'm going to marry.

[LeFou:] But she's -

[Gaston:]
The most beautiful girl in town.

[LeFou:] I know, but -

[Gaston:]
That makes her the best. And don't I deserve the best?

[LeFou:]
Well, of course! I mean you do, but -

[Gaston:]
Right from the moment when I met her, saw her
I said she's gorgeous and I fell
Here in town there's only she
Who is beautiful as me
So I'm making plans to woo and marry Belle

[Bimbettes:]
Look there he goes
Isn't he dreamy?
Monsieur Gaston
Oh he's so cute!
Be still my heart
I'm hardly breathing
He's such a tall, dark, strong and handsome brute!

[Man I:] Bonjour!

[Gaston:] Pardon

[Man II:] Good day

[Man III:] Mais oui!

[Matron:] You call this bacon?

[Woman I:] What lovely grapes!

[Man IV:] Some cheese

[Woman II:] Ten yards!

[Man IV:] One pound

[Gaston:] 'scuse me!

[Cheese merchant:] I'll get the knife

[Gaston:] Please let me through!

[Woman I:] This bread -

[Man V:] Those fish -

[Woman I:] It's stale!

[Man V:] They smell!

[Baker:] Madame's mistaken.

[Belle:]
There must be more than this provincial life!

[Gaston:]
Just watch, I'm going to make Belle my wife!

[Townsfolk:]
Look there she goes
The girl is strange but special
A most peculiar mad'moiselle!
It's a pity and a sin
She doesn't quite fit in
'Cause she really is a funny girl
A beauty but a funny girl
She really is a funny girl
That Belle!

I'm In Love With Him

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 23:12:16 GMT

so... last night i ended up watching movies n junk till around 2 AM (missing Josh terribly) and then mom and dad came home wasted. they blabbered a couple things on me and staggered to bed. i went and got their stuff out of the car and locked up the house. re-intsalled FF8 and played it for a while... Then my cat started going crazy so i turned off ym speakers and looked up. holy bob, there was all kinds of scary scampering sounds coming from my attic. probably citrus rats, damn... it scared me b/c it sounded like the beginning from The Grudge so i grabbed my cat and ran to bed, lmao. was woken up around 8 by sumtin goin beep beep, beep beep, in my room. i thought it was heather so i threw my pillow at the door and snuggled back up with my comforter... the beeping did not go away. so i got up, took a shower, and checked my room. Josh's cell phone (he left it here) keeps beeping and me being the one who knows zippo about cell phones, can not turn the lil bugger off!!!! so i jammed it under my couch and covered it with a pillow and it's probably still there right now. then i went and had a scrimmage against the Titans (;_;) and stuff... my legs are KILLING me... ow... i think i'm gonna take a bubbly bath and play some more FF8. my phone is plugged in should you need me... Love you, Josh

I smell like HIM... oh god, it is bliss

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 02:44:26 GMT

Josh just left and my heart is pounding so fast i can't think straight. He makes me feel more alive than anyone else. Wow... that's is all I can say... WOW... hehe, i've got "dizzy knees" and (haha) my face is so red i look like a cherry. phwee... i think i'm gonna snuggle with my Josh Pillow and watch stupid sappy Disney movies all night. luv you Josh